Total Eclipse Of The Heart Awards #2

Holy shit.

I just got an email from one of the admins at the awards and, um... All I can say is wow and thank you so fucking much everyone who's nominated me.

Here's the new and updated version of the categories you've nominated me in:

• The Stephenie Meyer Award - Best Author
• The Addictive Award - Story That Has You Checking You Email Every Minute For
• A 'New Chapter' Alert
• The 'Just The Beginning' Award - Best Story In-Progress
• The Detective of Forks Award - Story With The Best Mystery
• The Race Through Volterra Award - Best Volturi
• The Human In Them Award - Best All Human
• The Darkward Award - Best Dark Edward
• The Movie Award - Story That You Can Picture In Your Head...Like A Movie.
• The Panic Award - Story That Leaves You With Suspense...Or In Other Words,
• Best Cliffhanger
• The Heart Stopping Award - Story That Takes You By Surprise
• The Tense Atmosphere Award - Best Drama
• The Dazzling Protecter Award - Best Use Of Edward In A Story
• The Edible Art Award - Most Creative Story
• The Complicated Existance Award - Story With The Best Plot
• The Bitten Apple Award - Most Original Story
• The Creatures Of The Night Award - Story That Keeps You Up Late At Night Reading It

That's 16 awards, you've nominated me for. 16 fucking awards. I'm speechless. I don't expect to win in any of these categories - the other nominees are absolutely amazing - but the fact somebody even nominated me in the first place is seriously incredible and an honour.

Thank you so much.

I love you all xxx

Lyric Post #5

Leave me out with the waste
This is not what I do
It's the wrong kind of place
To be thinking of you

It's the wrong time
For somebody new
It's a small crime
And I've got no excuse

And is that alright? Yeah
Give my gun away when it's loaded
That alright? Yeah
If you don't shoot it how am I supposed to hold it?
That alright? Yeah
Give my gun away when it's loaded
That alright
With you?

Leave me out with the waste
This is not what I do
It's the wrong kind of place
To be cheating on you

It's the wrong time
She's pulling me through
It's a small crime
And I got no excuse

And is that alright? Yeah
Give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright? Yeah
If you dont shoot it, how am I supposed to hold it?
Is that alright? Yeah
If I give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright,
Is that alright with you?

Is that alright? Yeah
If I give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright? Yeah
If you don't shoot it, how am I supposed to hold it?
Is that alright? Yeah
If I give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright
Is that alright with you?

Is that alright? Yeah
Is that alright? Yeah
Is that alright? Yeah
Is that alright?
Is that alright?
Is that alright with you?

No...

9 Crimes - Damien Rice

Lyric Post #4

I want your ugly, I want your disease
I want your everything as long as it’s free
I want your love
Love, love, love, I want your love

I want your drama, the touch of your hand
I want your leather studded kiss in the sand
I want your love
Love, love, love, I want your love

You know that I want you, and you know that I need you
I want your bad, your bad romance

I want your love and I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
I want your love and your lover's revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Ooooh
Caught in a bad romance (x2)

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah
Roma, Roma-ma-ah
Gaga, ooh-la-la
Want your bad romance

I want your horror, I want your design
‘Cause you’re a criminal as long as you're mine
I want your love
Love, love, love, I want your love

I want your psycho, your vertical stick
Want you in my rear window - baby, you're sick
I want your love
Love, love, love, I want your love

You know that I want you, and you know that I need you
I want your bad, your bad romance

I want your love and I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
I want your love and all your lover's revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oooooh
Caught in a bad romance (x2)

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah
Roma, Roma-ma-ah
Gaga, ooh-la-la
Want your bad romance

Walk, walk, fashion baby
Work it, move that bitch crazy (x3)
Walk, walk, fashion baby
Work it,
I'm a free bitch, baby

I want your love, and I want your revenge
I want your love - I don’t wanna be friends

Je veux ton amor, et je veux ton revanche
Je veux ton amor - I don't wanna be friends

No, I don't wanna be friends
I don't wanna be friends
Want your bad romance
Caught in a bad romance

Want your bad romance

I want your love and I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
I want your love and all your lover's revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oooooh
Caught in a bad romance (x2)

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah
Roma, Roma-ma-ah
Gaga, ooh-la-la
Want your bad romance

Bad Romance - Lady Gaga

Total Eclipse Of The Heart Awards

Okay, so I haven't officially received the message confirming this yet, but it's been brought to my attention that Camisado has been nominated in ten categories on The Total Eclipse of the Heart Awards. I'm stunned, and can't thank whoever's nominated me enough for this. Nominations are still open at the moment, and you can nominate however many fics you like as many times as you like, so go get nominating - only the top four most nominated fics in each category will go through to the next round!

If any of you are interested, the categories I'm nominated in are:

• The Stephenie Meyer Award: Best Author
• The Addictive Award: Story That Has You Checking You Email Every Minute For A 'New Chapter' Alert
• The 'Just The Beginning' Award: Best Story In-Progress
• The Human In Them Award: Best All Human
• The Dazzling Protecter Award: Best Use Of Edward In A Story
• The Movie Award: Story That You Can Picture In Your Head...Like A Movie.
• The Panic Award: Story That Leaves You With Suspense...Or In Other Words, Best Cliffhanger
• The Heart Stopping Award: Story That Takes You By Surprise
• The Tense Atmosphere Award: Best Drama
• The Edible Art Award: Most Creative Story

I'm completely blown away by those nominations and really can't believe people think I deserve them right now, so thank you, thank you, thank you to whoever has nominated me - I'm speechless.

You can find a list of more nominees here, and the main site here.

Happy nominating! xx

Chapter Five - A Tear In The Membrane (Teaser)

“I’m okay,” I lied, then let go of his hand and started to stand. “It’s okay. I’m just going to… go.”

Not wanting to risk letting him see how much he’d hurt me, I hurriedly limped over to the bathroom, keeping my head ducked down just in case he tried following me, then quickly shut the door and locked it behind me before pressing my forehead against the cool wood and closing my eyes.

How could I be so stupid?

I bit down on my lip to stifle a sob as I brought my hand up to cup my cheek, then slowly opened my eyes again and inhaled a shuddering breath before limping over to the sink and gazing at myself in the mirror.

I stared at my reflection blankly for a few moments, letting myself experience the pain for once, letting the slow burn of it spread through mme and using it to remind myself of how much of an idiot I’d just been.

I slammed my hands down against the sink in anger, pissed off at myself for making yet another rookie mistake. What was it about Edward that kept making me slip up? I knew better than this, knew better than to let my emotions over-rule my head this way, but for some reason, whenever Edward was involved, all that training went out the window.

I shook my head, then looked up at my reflection again, taking in the tears that continued to roll down my flushed cheeks, the way my hair had fallen from its bun whilst I was sleeping and now hung limply round my face, making myself look more vulnerable than ever before. This wasn’t me. The way I’d acted yesterday was inexcusable – I’d let what had happened that morning affect the way I did my job, and that was something I couldn’t afford to do. Edward had been right – I was going to get us both killed.

Chapter Five - A Tear In The Membrane (Pic Tease)

Chapter Four - Speechless (Teaser)

“Edward, I-”

“Don’t,” he spat, twisting round to face me. “How could you be so stupid?”

“I thought I heard-”

“I told you never to go anywhere without me, didn’t I?” he continued, ignoring my attempt at interrupting him. “Are you trying to get yourself killed, Isabella? Is that what this is about? You’re pissed at me for hurting your fucking toes so you decide to be all rebellious and go exploring? Jesus, are you completely out of your fucking mind?”

“I didn’t mean to-”

“To what? To go nosing around like some fucking detective? I don’t give a shit about what you did or didn’t hear, Bella – it’s not your place to go investigating a damn thing,” he growled angrily, glaring at me. I swallowed hard, shocked by his outburst. For me, it was easy to tell when someone’s anger was manufactured or real, and Edward’s rage…. That wasn’t faked. I tried to take a few steps forward, feeling my eyes well up with tears, then flinched when Edward threw his hands up in the air, half expecting him to hit me.

“Why can’t you just do what I tell you to for once?”

“I’m not a fucking dog, Edward,” I said softly, looking him straight in the eyes despite the fear I was feeling. “I’m a human being.”

“You don’t think I know that?” he replied, his voice rising. “But Jesus, Bella, I thought you had more sense than that.”

“All I did was try and see if I could help someone!” I pointed out. Why the fuck was he so angry? “It’s hardly a crime!”

“It wasn’t your place!” he shouted, and I jerked back from him in shock as he took another step closer. “You can’t do that shit, Isabella! It will get you killed!”

Chapter Four - Speechless (Pic Tease 2)

Fandom Gives Back: Eclipse

Hey, everyone.

Just to let you all know, I'm entering the Fandom Gives Back: Eclipse author auction, offering up around 3 outtakes from EPOV of Camisado which can be from current chapters (including those posted between now and the auction) or possibly missing scenes to fill in some gaps about Edward's past.

I don't know if anybody would be interested in bidding on me or anything, but the auction's for a good cause and I thought I'd do my part just in case :)

Sophy xx

Lyric Post #3

This song is my favourite one from the New Moon soundtrack, and really sticks out to me when it comes to certain events later on in the story. I'd highlight certain lines and phrases, but that would spoil the fun now, wouldn't it? Enjoy x

I think I know what's on your mind,
a couple words, a great divide.
Waiting in the wings, a sparring spite,
crawling out the foreground from behind.

Even though you're the only one I see,
it's the last catastrophe.
Place your bets on chance and apathy.

Take anything you want, it's fine.
Keep up the slow life for the night.
Dont take it back, I'll just deny
this constant noise all the time.

Even though you're the only one I see,
it's the last catastrophe.
Place your bets on chance and apathy
to the wind in front of you.

Even though you're the only one I see,
it's the last catastrophe.
Place your bets on chance and apathy
to the wind in front of you.

Even though you're the only one I see . . .

Slow Life - Grizzly Bear

Lyrics Post #2

This song reminds me of chapter four and a future scene later on in the story. It's a beautiful song, and I hope you enjoy it too.

I can’t believe what you said to me
Last night when we were alone
You threw your hands up
Baby you gave up, you gave up

I can’t believe how you looked at me
With your James Dean glossy eyes
In your tight jeans with your long hair
And your cigarette stained lies

Could we fix you if you broke?
And is your punch line just a joke?

I’ll never talk again
Oh, boy, you’ve left me speechless
You’ve left me speechless, so speechless

I can’t believe how you slurred at me
With your half wired broken jaw
You popped my heart seams
On my bubble dreams, bubble dreams

I can’t believe how you looked at me
With your Johnnie Walker eyes
He’s gonna get you, and after he’s through
There’s gonna be no love left to rye

And I know that it’s complicated
But I’m a loser in love
So baby, raise a glass to mend
All the broken hearts
Of all my wrecked up friends

I’ll never talk again
Oh, boy, you’ve left me speechless
You’ve left me speechless, so speechless

I’ll never love again,
Oh, friend, you’ve left me speechless
You’ve left me speechless, so speechless

How?

And after all the drinks and bars that we’ve been to
Would you give it all up?
Could I give it all up for you?

And after all the boys and girls that we’ve been through
Would you give it all up?
Could you give it all up?
If I promise, boy, to you

That I’ll never talk again
And I’ll never love again
I’ll never write a song
Won’t even sing along

I’ll never love again

So speechless
You left me speechless, so speechless

Will you ever talk again?
Oh, boy, why you so speechless?
You’ve left me speechless, so speechless

Some men may follow me
But you choose death and company
Why you so speechless? Oh oh oh

Speechless - Lady Gaga

Lyric Post #1

This song is what I imagine in my head when I think of a certain scene later on in Camisado involving Bella and Edward. I can't tell you what the scene is yet, but when we reach that point, I'll let you all know :)

We can never go home
We no longer have one
I'll help you carry the load
I'll carry you in my arms
The kiss of the snow,
The crescent moon above us
Our blood is cold and we're alone,
but I'm alone with you.

Help me to carry the fire
We will keep it alight together
Help me to carry the fire
It will light our way forever

If I say shut your eyes
If I say look away
Bury your face in my shoulder
Think of a birthday
The things you put in your head
They will stay here forever
Our blood is cold and we're alone, love
But I'm alone with you

Help me to carry the fire
We will keep it alight together
Help me to carry the fire
It will light our way, forever

Help me to carry the fire
We will keep it alight together
Now help me to carry the fire
It will light our way, forever

No sound but the wind
No sound but the wind

If I say shut your eyes
If I say shut your eyes
Bury me in surprise
When I say shut your eyes

Help me to carry the fire
We will keep it alight together
Help me carry the fire
It will light our way, forever

No Sound But The Wind - The Editors

Question Post #1

Hey, everyone.

So, because loads of people have questions about Camisado, I've decided to set up a little post here which will answer some of them and give you all the chance to ask more.

Obviously, certain questions can't be answered for the sake of spoiling the plot, but I'm willing to answer as many as I can for you all.

To start off, here are the main questions people have asked so far:

1) What is the significance of the title 'Camisado'?
2) Do I have an update schedule?
3) Why is Bella in the compound?
4) Why is Edward in the compound?
5) Who/What are the Volturi?
6) Why did Bella struggle to find the compound?

And here are my (stupidly long) answers:

1) I chose 'Camisado' as the title purely by accident. I wish I could come up with a brilliant, ingenious answer that made me look clever and sophisticated, but all it was was me putting my iPod on shuffle and hoping for the best. I came across the song Camisado by Panic! at the Disco, and immediately looked up the definition of the word, hoping it meant something related to what I was writing.

Here's what came up:

Camisado:

• An attack made under cover of darkness.
• In military tactics, a camisado, or camisade, is a surprise attack occurring at night, or at daybreak, when the enemy are supposed to be asleep.
• A nocturnal ambush or surprising act of aggression.

Thank God for iPods, huh?


2) Unfortunately, I don't have one at the moment - I find they tend to limit me too much and make me freak out if I don't stick to them. However, if I do settle in to one, I'll let you all know :)


3) Hopefully, the story's summary and some of the most recent chapters have explained this somewhat, but I'll repeat what's been revealed just in case you missed it: Bella's in the compound to extract her targets, one of whom is Edward, gather some intel, then hightail it out of there. I wish I could say more without ruining things, but that simply isn't possible - sorry :(


4) Ah, Undercoverward.... I wish I could tell you why he's there without spoiling the plot, but unfortunately, all I can say is he's been there for four years as an undercover agent, working his way up the ranks of The Volturi. Let's just say that with those new ranks, he's been.... enlightened.


5) Again, I can't say much here, but The Volturi are basically a group that's run by Aro, and they're not a very nice bunch of people. At all.


6) The Volturi compound is somewhere that's almost impossible to locate and is incredibly well secured, making it very hard to get in to unless you know how. Bella's intel could only take her so far, and nobody was talking. The Volturi have their members on an EXTREMELY tight leash.


I hope this post has cleared things up for you, and please, please, please don't hesitate to comment on this post/message me on twitter/post on the thread with your questions - I love answering them.

Sophy xoxo

Chapter Four - Speechless (Pic Tease)

Chapter Three - Caught In A Bad Romance (Teaser)

Not letting myself over-think things again, I pressed my lips to his and slowly reached down to wrap my hand around him, only to have him stop me before I had the chance to touch him. I groaned in protest, twisting my wrist to try and escape his grip, but all that did was send pain shooting through my hand, so I tried distracting him with more kisses instead.

“Not tonight,” he whispered against my lips. I groaned in protest again, shaking my head.

“Edward, please,” I breathed.

“I’m not saying never,” he murmured, “just… not tonight.”

“But-”

“You’re not up to it,” he reasoned, kissing me softly.

“You are,” I pointed out, barely managing to graze the tips of my fingers over the head of his cock. Fucking hell, he was hard. He sucked in a breath, squeezing my wrist a little tighter, then glared at me, though I could tell he wasn’t being completely serious.

“Please,” I pleaded. “Let me do this for you.”

“I don’t need you to,” he replied with a shake of his head. I opened my mouth to protest, but he cut me off with his lips, carefully shifting on top of me before rolling onto my other side and pulling me round to face him. I took the opportunity to reach down for him again, but he simply pulled his hips back from me and moved off the bed. I gaped at him, stunned, then groaned when he leaned down to kiss me again.

“That’s what I have these for,” he murmured as he pulled away, waving his hands before winking and walking towards the bathroom.

“Edward?” I called, pushing myself upright.

“Go back to sleep, Bella,” he replied, then pushed the bathroom door open before stepping in and shutting it behind him.

The click of the lock turning seemed obnoxiously loud in the otherwise silent room, and I blinked a few times in shock before groaning with frustration and flopping back onto the bed. What the fuck just happened?

Chapter Two - A Therapeutic Chain Of Events (Teaser)

“Would you like a drink?” Edward asked as he walked past me, breaking that train of thought before it had the chance to spiral too far. I bit down on my bottom lip, then turned round to face him, watching as he undid the top few buttons of his shirt and started walking towards what appeared to be a mini bar.

“Edward?” I called, toeing off my boots and dropping them to the floor.

“Mmm?” He didn’t look back at me; he simply opened the fridge as pulled out a bottle of vodka and set it on the nearby table. I smiled, shaking my head, then slowly started to walk towards him…

Once he was close enough to touch, I reached out and placed my hand on his back, turning him to face me.

“I don’t want a drink,” I murmured softly, gazing up into his eyes. “The only thing I want right now is you.”

Chapter One - No Accident (Teaser)

“You see, the problem we have here is that each time we get a surprise visitor like yourself, they turn out to be a fed or cop. And do you know what happens to those… visitors?” I looked up at him, wide eyed. “They disappear.”

I swallowed hard again, feeling my eyes well up with tears.

“So, my dear, do you see my dilemma?”

I nodded weakly.

“Good,” he sighed, smiling. “So, what I want to know is who sent you and why, and if you don’t tell me…” He trailed off, his smile turning sinister. “Well, let’s just say that James here will make you talk… amongst other things.”

I closed my eyes, strengthening my resolve, then slowly opened them again and stared at the man before me. He shook his head and sighed. “Stupid girl. Felix?”

The barrel of a gun pressed against the back of my head.

“You have until three.” I swallowed hard. “One…”

Please… Please…

“Two…”

“She’s with me!”

My body sagged with relief. Thank you.

“Edward!” The barrel was moved from my head, and I watched with wide eyes as a man emerged from the shadows, his unruly bronze hair and pale skin making him stand out amongst those around him. “How nice of you to join us!”

Summary

They told her it was suicide. She didn't believe them. The mission? Maintain the cover, get inside and extract the targets safely. Simple, right? Bella Swan used to think so... until she met Edward Masen.

Rated for violence, language and possible smut.